♥Saturday, July 14, 2007

Depression

Haiz. I think my depression might be coming back again.

Lately, i am so easily agitated by the smallest things you could ever think of.

Talked to my frens about all these. She said i am just tired of being in this kind of life.
You know what?? I think she might be right.

My morale at work lately has been so low that i keep getting stressed up and throw my temper here and there whenever the work load picks up. Because of my frequent mood swings, i quarrelled with alot of people recently. Haiz.

And sometimes, there are a lot of things going on back stage, its only when you start having heart to heart talk with people that you realized that you are missing out a lot. Suddenly, things are going to change and the things that you predict will happen nv comes true.

My promotion to corporal rank had been delayed as i have failed my 1st IPPT and they have not updated it with the 2nd IPPT that i have passed. Apparently, you cannot be promoted if you fail ur IPPT. What rubbish right?? Plus i have already pass my IPPT, then just because of some admin problem, my promotion is dealyed. N i don't even noe if i will be backpayed.

Sian lor, sometimes i feel so sian.
Why are u doing all these?
Why are you trying so hard dealing with all the superiors, office politics and the paperwork that are always piling up so high, when nobody cares about your welfare?
If tml, i am gone from this world, the company will still move on. Its a fact.
So why bother?
And sometimes, the hardwork and all the effort that i put in, never gets recognized.
I feel so unappreciated at times!!
Even the relationship with people, a simple misunderstanding or a small mistake on ur part can lead to this friendship bond being broken or weaken, everything good in the past is simple erased just like that. Its the relationship that i cherish so much with these people that weak and vulnerable?
Rumors and Preception is also another scary thing. Is avoiding the best way??

Its really a bitchy, messy and complicated world. It is!!

Luckily there is still ndp rehearsals, distract mi a bit.
I tell u this year's NDP is gonna be a blast.
Last time the CR2 u guys watch really nothing lor.
With the lightings, lazer, water effects, fire effects and fireworks!!!!
The complete show is gonna be so touching!!!
Be sure to catch the whole parade on National Day on TV!!!

Well another video of my my favourite NDP songs,
Tanya Chua's Where I Belong
Stefanie Sun's One United People
Kaira Gong's My Island Home
Enjoy!!!


Suggestion:
Sharon to usher in the Nation's Bdae can we can also put some NDP songs as our blog song?? Just a suggestion

P.S:~ Thanks to my frens, i gotta be a judge for this year's Star Awards. Haha. So excited. This year very busy hor, involved in 2 big event, NDP and Star Awards!!!

Xian Hao

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☆:
如果海会说话
如果风爱上砂
如果有些想念
遗忘在漫长的长假
我会聆听浪花
让风吹过头发
任记忆里的爱情
在时间潮汐里喧哗
非得等春天远了夏天才近了
我是在回首时终于懂得
当阳光 再次
回到那飘着雨的国境之南
我会试着把那一年的故事
再接下去说完
当阳光 再次
离开那太晴朗的国境之南
妳会不会把妳曾带走的爱
在告别前用微笑全归还
海很蓝 星光灿烂
我仍空着我的臂弯
天很宽 在我独自唱歌的夜晚
请原谅我的爱诉说的太缓慢
当阳光 再次
回到那飘着雨的国境之南
我会试着把那一年的故事
再接下去说完
当阳光 再次
离开那太晴朗的国境之南
妳会不会把妳曾带走的爱
在告别前用微笑全归还



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